"So this is the New Year, and I don't feel any different." If you are like me you listened to the opening track of Death Cab For Cutie's latest, "Transatlanticism," at least a half dozen times on New Years Eve in order to get yourself in the mood. Of course if you are like me & cannot ever muster the proper emotion or impress on yourself the importance of a particular event as it is happening--esp. when this is demanded of you in some sort of social situation--you were unsuccessful at that. Oh well don't sweat it. Just don't ever become a flight attendant, a funeral home director, a greeter, or any other position that requires emotional labor. Or emotions in general...
So this is the New Year. I guess I do feel a little different, finally I have met a cool girl--Kim, Jamaimer's sister--and we've been hanging out some. Well, a lot actually. She has unusual taste, cries during Bjork movies, writes her own songs and records them. I suspect she can beat me at Scrabble. (I don't know for sure because we stopped after 3 turns.) We think alike on some of the important things. Only I dunno what's gonna happen, soon she will go back to school in Nevada & then maybe next semester to Berklee in Boston. And I will be who knows where: Seattle? D.C.? California?
So here's a dilemma I've been in before. You know, even though it didn't turn out the way I wanted to last time, I wouldn't have done things any differently. I met a person who changed me for the better & that was worth it. But at the same time it's not very realistic of me & as maybe you know reality has been my obsession for the last year, so maybe this time I should just stop being such a dreamy doofus. Or maybe I should stop being so indecisive. Maybe.
Posted by Alan at January 3, 2004 05:29 PMWell, hey, that sounds like pretty much my situation with girls these days. I've taken an interest in an individual who is at Army flight school. We are too (foolishly?) dedicated to our careers, hers in the Army and mine in school, to seem to want to do anything serious about it.
Well, Alan, you're a smart man. If you figure it out, you can probably make a lot of people very happy.
Oh, and a gracious beginning of a new arbitrary time standard.
Posted by: Scott "Madman" Miller at January 5, 2004 10:32 PMWell good to hear from you Scotty even though the tidings be ill. Just listen to little voice in your head chanting "career! career! career!" Because anything else would be, well, un-American.
"Oh, and a gracious beginning of a new arbitrary time standard"--that's classic Scott Millerism if I ever heard one. I miss your enraged monkey typing only with index fingers impression, send video footage please.
Posted by: Alan at January 7, 2004 01:34 PM